Sunset at the Horizon

(Based on a real incident)  The morning was beginning on a rather dull note. I sat alone and had my breakfast amidst a huge crowd of my colleagues at the office cafeteria. I noticed one of my breakfast buddies sitting a few tables across from me. I tried to call him using my Apple watch, but like any technology, it was just the right amount of a tedious process for me to give up and continue munching alone. I stared outside the window at the bright sun rays lighting up the broad leaves of a tree and was soon lost in the thoughts of my early morning retrospection. With the last sip of my coffee that was now cold, I was finally done with another day's breakfast. Scuffling through the maze of tables and onwards to the washbasin, I chose to ignore everyone on my way out of the canteen. A solitary soul like me sometimes just wished for a quiet morning to start my day. Outside the food court, I felt a deep relief seep through me. The serenity of the surrounding trees and fresh breeze ove...

It took me a while To look back and smile The tears are now dried No more regrets that I tried All there is left is a bit of guilt that I couldn't save the friendships I'd built If only I had said sorry more often "Sorry for all the blame and accusation Sorry for hurling every last insult Sorry for making things so difficult Sorry that I trampled on your heart Sorry that we had to grow so apart Sorry for all the promises I broke Sorry for all the harsh words I spoke Sorry that I didn’t realize it was so rude Sorry that I never understood Sorry for being so immature Sorry for not being able to endure Sorry for often losing my temper Sorry for being so unnecessarily bitter Sorry for never listening to you Sorry for doubting you weren't true Sorry that I eventually drove you mad Sorry that I couldn’t see that I made you sad Sorry for what I put you through Sorry you didn’t deserve to be so blue" So sorry that all the respect was lost All these mistakes came at an imm...

Let me know of the pain you hide Behind soft words and a sweet smile I know deep down you’re withering inside Take off that mask, it’s been a while Just call out to me and I will be there A shoulder to cry on, a hand to wipe away tears Let it all out, just open up & share Let me feel your pain, take away your fears I can see you struggle when you remember The pain you endured alone, years together The memories haunting even in your slumber Nightmares of past, upheaval in the yonder All will vanish if you just let me know I am that priest you confess to in a church I am that page you write, crumple up and throw I am that closure that you desperately search I am all you need, the beginning to an end Only if you let me know, I can be your savior I can be your angel, I can be your godsend Let me guide you in your lonely endeavor Of moving on from the past to a bright future Let me be the light in the darkness that surrounds Give me permission to end your torture Free you, save you, bey...

In the qualms of darkness I seek that distant dot of light Not a ray of hope, it would be too bright Just that light at the end of the tunnel Whispering the promise of “It’s gonna be okay” Rendering a fleeting hope of reviving me any day If only I could fast forward to that future When the insufferable present is lost In the forgotten realms of the past When this loneliness & emptiness make way To unfurl the indomitable me When the scars in my heart decide to set me free I look forward to that day, however long it takes Each second with bated breath I shall wait When miracles of my own, I can create Now… “Just stand up and fight”, I say To the girl in the mirror looking full of dismay “Wipe those tears, coz no one else will You are on your own, fight you have to still There is air in your lungs & blood in your vein Your limbs are strong, you have a heart & a brain Dispel the darkness of your doom It’s time for some joy to make room You will be fine as long as you fight Don’...

 

Well, I tried Tried my best to be Your better half But perhaps I was too broken Or you were too impatient That our love didn’t last Words could have been sweeter No regret can erase this past You said you were done Left me no choice When you shut the door Forever became barely a year Promises became empty words Tears replaced the smiles Trust was lost Hearts were broken Maybe I don’t want to be sorry Always or anymore Maybe I don’t want to be the one Who drove you away It was you who chose To abandon I burnt your gifts And I will burn your memories too That’s me moving on Our end is welcoming me to a new beginning I will survive dear Without you Happier perhaps With no more tears! Hope you find What you are looking for In some other girl I was supposed to be special But there will always be someone better Clutch tight to that ego of yours The very one I hurt Stroke it, kiss it, worship it Because I no longer will! Yes, now I am done My heart was abused enough Burnt by my own sincerity ...

Here comes another Mother's Day So I write one more poem for you today You will definitely be bored of this I know But its the only way my love I can show! Because I can't thank you enough you see For the excruciating pain you took to birth me, The career you gave up to have me raised Your selfless sacrifice will always be praised... How you listened to my rantings of the whole day The hours of your life that I stole, I cannot repay... The tantrums I threw, how often I cried over a silly thing! You were patient, reassuring...a smile you always managed to bring At bedtime & mealtime your Tuan Tuin stories rock, How fashionably you stitched every one of my frock! The barbie dolls & crayons you rewarded as prize Winning became easier with the motivation you devised Your terrific genes were more than I could ask for Intelligence, creativity...and the Nature I adore You are brilliant...you are my first teacher, a tailor, a gardener, even an interior decorator! a mathematici...

Pitifully I weep copious tears My only solace is the warmth it bears How curious the cold numbness in my heart Becomes hot tears as I fall apart! I mourn his death, but he is not dead He lives, breathes…in joy, I dread Far away from me, severing all ties This void can only be felt when he dies So I wail, I scream, I sob, I cry The absence, the loss makes me wanna die If thus abandoned I’m as good as dead, Let me live, and feign his death instead! How else can I ever convince my mind? That he won’t return, he has left me behind That he is happy without me in his life Since I brought nothing to him but strife Time has flown; it’s been a year But I’m stuck, still loving him as a dear The flickering flame of hope that he’ll return Time chooses cruelly to no longer burn And so I falsely pronounce him dead But my grief is real, true tears I shed Everywhere his memories surround Remind me that he is no more around It hurts to even ...

He said to me “Sometimes I take off my specs, you see And without them on, I have no clue That the person waving at me is you!” “So if I don’t wave back or smile Don’t think I have any attitude or style And please please don’t you mind Don’t judge me as impolite and unkind” I replied smiling bright, “Don’t you worry! It’s quite alright! Now that you have explained I wouldn’t mind again!” “Maybe next time I will say ‘Hey!’ And wave wildly all the way So that you hear me at least Don’t wear specs for me, I insist!” And so the misunderstanding was cleared He didn’t overlook me as I had feared Just that it was me, he was unaware Coz of the spectacles he didn’t wear But why did he clarify this now? I liked him, did he come to know somehow? Is that why he needed to make sure That no hurt feelings I should endure?! Or was it an excuse to really ignore? Pretending to not see me any more No smiles to exchange, no twinkling eyes Igno...

I want to see Perhaps a bird? But not when it flies I want to see how it sleeps Does it rest like us with closed eyes? I want to talk Not with those who hear but don't listen I want to narrate my story to my pet Because the dumb only pay attention I want to trek that hill Not to claim it's formidable peak I just want to see what lays in its path It's the beauty of Nature I seek I want to enjoy a meal Not when it's lavish, free or just the regular Not even when it's cooked with love of my mother For once I want the taste of starvation and hunger I want to make friends Not only those with whom I can enjoy or relax I want to stand by the one who is lonely and bullied I want him to smile when laugh at his wisecracks I want to sing and dance Not for others on a stage or at any party Not on a schedule, just anytime and anywhere When I am reminded of things that make me happy I want to play Not with anyone's life or emotions Why lie and deceive in adult life? When I w...

Her teardrop betrayed The 'I love you' she never said The pain that she felt Couldn't make his heart melt For how would he know sitting miles away? That this distance made her cry everyday She languished to be within his sight To see him, touch him, hug him so tight! Her heart thus yearned to be his dear But all he cared was for his career He knew not of the love she hid in her heart She feared rejection would keep them apart Thus secretly she loved, openly only as a friend To ensure her love story doesn't come to an end It was bitter sweet, this love story of hers Overwhelmed by love but not to be lovers Only if she had mustered the courage to tell She could have known that he liked her as well Yes, he liked her, very much indeed But he too was afraid to confess & concede Hearing tales of unrequited love's aftermath He chose to avoid this unpredictable path Working hard, burning midnight oil...